Looks like this blog has been in a bit of a hiatus! Sorry for our absences, we have all be going through a lot of changes.
Lately, I’ve been starting to feel like a real CO resident, being here for more than a year now. I am doing my Masters of SW online with USC, and have been working as well. My life has been jam-packed lately!! I have been extremely stressed and feel overworked because of the workload at my job, and the amount of time I need to spend working, doing school work, and at my internship. Luckily, I have some amazing friends at my job who help me get through every day, and my amazing husband supports me every day in any way he can. He constantly shows me that we were made for each other.
If anyone told me when I first got engaged that I would be married by the end of the year, I would have thought that person was crazy. But here I am, a married woman. I am so ridiculously happy. With some upcoming changes in his military career, we made the decision on December 1, 2015 to get married on December 31, 2015. It took many days of deliberating, but it was the best choice for us to make. Let me just say, to the people who think it cannot be done in a short amount of time, our wedding is proof that it can be.
I was surprised by how many people kept expecting me to be nervous about getting married, asking if I was pregnant, or telling my then-fiance that he should back out while he had the chance. I was also pleasantly surprised that so many people were so supportive of the decision. Everyone was taken by surprise, but immediately asked how to help and stepped up to the challenge when asked. Both my family and my in-laws were gung-ho for the entire process and it was so wonderful. Both my husband and myself were running around doing errands every day while he was on leave to get all the information together and put together a wedding, all while I still had to go to work.
And what a wedding it was. The entire event was perfect, and with barely any practice. It was beautiful. We felt so much love that whole day, and the sneak peek pictures I have seen captured it all. It was such a blast all day, and the mini honeymoon we went on was so wonderful as well.
Now, a week and 1 day later, my husband is flying back to Colorado. Every time we start off a long period of separation, my body revolts. It is little things like this that convince me that we are soul mates, crafted together and shared in two separate bodies joined in love. Luckily, I will be flying out to join him soon, and by early February we will be in our first apartment together and creating our life as our family of two. I am full of so many emotions all at once, but it will be so worth it. I cannot wait to be back in his arms in just about a month.
I arrived in Colorado Springs on 10/18, totally excited for my boyfriend to arrive back from Kuwait. This deployment felt almost harder than his past combative one simply due to time zones and the overall timing of it. I made a sign and waited for him to get home after one delay. He arrived safe and sound. We were also excited because we would be spending our 4 1/2 years together. We have never been able to be together for big milestones before. Andrew decided to get a room at the Cheyenne Mountain Resort for the weekend to celebrate, have a nice dinner, and some champagne and strawberries. He always does things to make our time together special. Little did I know, it was going to be a bigger night than I expected…
We got up to our room, It was gorgeous, I was having him follow me to the balcony and taking in the sights, the Rocky Mountains. He said it was a bit chilly and wanted to go back into the room. Before I flew out to Colorado Springs, he had asked me to bring the letters he wrote to me; he said he had a plan of putting things together nicely. I didn’t think anything of it, since I had just finished my scrap book/photo album of my travels in Europe from last year. He asked to see the letters, and started to take them out of the envelopes to look at what they were, “I’m just putting them in the order I sent them” he told me. I just sat and watched. Then he told me “There’s one letter I didn’t get to send before I came home…” He drew a question mark on a piece of paper and placed it at the end of his letters. He said “Okay. Figure it out.” I was so confused. I got up off the bed to get a front view of what he had been working on. I just stared at them. There were some shapes at the tops of some of the letters, but it wasn’t making sense to me. “Could you please help me a little? I’m not sure what I’m looking for…” I was literally so confused. “Look at the first letter of each one.” From the time he started writing to me from Kuwait 9 months ago, until now, Andrew had been planning this moment. The letters spelled out “Will you marry me?” I turned to him, and he was on one knee. He said my full name and started to say something nice about us/me. I was so surprised, I cut him off and said “Are you serious?!” I asked him about 3-4 more times and just hugged him so hard. I would be lying if I said that I wasn’t crying because I was so happy. He then asked “So, do you want the ring, or….?” And he put the ring on my finger. We are engaged! The way he did this was so perfect, and so surprising, I could not have imagined a better proposal for us. It was so personal and between just the two of us. I have such an amazing man in my life and I am so excited to spend the rest of our lives together.
-Kayla ❤ 😀
It’s not like you always seek out certain books to realize something, and even when you do, the realizations and thoughts that come through may not have been expected.
I just finished reading American Wife written by Taya Kyle with Jim DeFelice. I was astounded at how much I saw Andrew in Chris Kyle, and even more by how much I aligned with Taya Kyle. Obviously, we are not a mirror image couple, and our relationship is its own. But many of the personality traits I see in Andrew or in myself while reading this book.
After dealing with a loss myself, although not a spouse, this book was therapeutic in the waves of grief that followed and are still washing up now and then. And it also faced a fear I have had, but also deepened since my friend died: how I am always hoping for Andrew’s well-being because I don’t really know what it would be like to face my life without him.
Near the end of the memoir, Taya talks about her search for happiness, and how she usually finds herself thinking of what she hasn’t done rather than her successes. I really saw myself doing this often, although I consider myself a ‘happy’ person. I have been stressed, restless this summer counting down the days and the savings I need to move and start my life-our life-with Andrew. Yet I haven’t necessarily celebrated what I have accomplished so far because I keep looking at what I need to do for the next thing. It definitely reminded me to LIVE IN THE MOMENT more. Something I try to do, but it is definitely an aspiration of mine for that to come more naturally. I have two undergraduate degrees under my belt, I am working in (one of) my fields of study and have someone I love deeply who loves me in return, and I even have plans that I am working towards. I am not lost, but I am still learning and succeeding each day.
So cheers to me on that, and congrats to you (all) for what you succeeded in this summer.
“Oh the places you’ll go”
So this post is around 3 weeks late, but I graduated college! I am constantly reminded why I chose The College at Brockport to become my alma mater, which is always reassuring. I was delaying this post because I was working out my career choices. I flew to Denver right after my graduation to audition for a dance company and it went so incredibly well and i loved the company and the choreographer and could literally see my dance life there for the rest of my life. Unfortunately, they chose someone who already lives out there and could start immediately, so I didn’t get the job. But they hope to see me again. so perhaps next summer. I did, however, get hired at Behavioral Health Network in Western Mass. I will be working a job in my field that could be a permanent position. While I am so excited to start work next week, I also am not going to keep this job forever. I still plan to move west, or anywhere, to follow my first love: dance. For now, I will be using this job for experience and building references and working on getting savings so I can afford to move and follow my dance career. But I am so excited to have a job in one of my fields and to start enjoying life out of college.
I just wanted to let you girls know that I have decided to become a Pure Romance consultant!!! And I am super excited about it, and I hope to share more about it with you.
And really, the reason why I did it was because I am tired of relying SOLEY on Starbucks for my income. Waking up at 3am is really starting to take a toll on me… So my goal with this business is to be able to work from home. My sponsor is a stay-at-home mom with 3 young children and she makes crazy money! I can totally do that! I want to be able to stay home whenever Jon and I decide to start a family. I don’t want to have to work to pay for childcare.
So if you ladies see any of my Pure Romance posts on here or Facebook, click like? It’ll make me feel better 😀
I am going to my first non-college audition this weekend. I am (mostly) packed and have my ride to the airport all arranged. I was fine until about an hour ago. Now I am all jittery shaking because I am starting to get nervous. Hopefully I can get this out of my system by the time that ballet class for the audition comes around. Chicago here I come. Wish me luck!